Oh my gosh-- it's happening! CD1 arrived, which means tomorrow I start birth control and this is officially HAPPENING. I almost feel a little bit out of control, like there is some unknown IVF Life Force that is kind of taking over and just moving everything along every day, and I'm just a passenger. Maybe it's because trying naturally every month has just been our routine for SO LONG that I almost feel in disbelief that we are actually getting help. In any case, I'm sure after the few weeks of the birth control pill, and when it's time for that first injection, everything will start to feel REALLY REALLY REAL! Haha! Have I mentioned that I'm REALLY scared of those? Good Lord, I'm sweating just thinking about it! (PS where are the emojis in this blog, anyway?)
Also, it felt SO STRANGE to be going to the pharmacy for birth control! It felt like heresy, after TTC for 2.5 years! I never imagined the process for Mark & I to make a baby would be REFRAINING from sex for 30 days while I take BIRTH CONTROL and inject myself with hormones. Super, super romantic... not.
But you know what, when Mark got home from work tonight, we were both in great spirits. And when I asked him to help me take all of these silly pictures for this blog post, he happily obliged, and tucked away things on our counters so that the photos would be how he knew I would want them. And we hugged, and laughed, and there weren't any tears today. So all things considered, "Day 1" was a very good day. <3